Before I sleep

20 lines

Most nights I wonder

what happens in the end

fading black like the sky after 6

perhaps white like the bathroom light

or grey

or nothing at all

sometimes exhaustion falls

on me and I’m gone

instantly. That’s a bliss

peace, until I wake over nothing

can’t shut myself down

that’s when I wonder

silly things like

what a stranger is doing that instant

in a country I’ve never been

like

how life is truly pointless at times

like

when will I start living my life

for myself.